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zara_mizundastood
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Country: United States
State: California
Birthday: 10/8/1985
Gender: Female
Interests: making out with Janey and Kristine, talking dirty online with Janey & Kristine, getting happy in the pants cuz of Janey & Kristine....
Expertise: making bagel mad
Occupation: Student
Industry: Other
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
Member Since:
5/28/2003
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| NOTHING MAKES SENSE AND I HATE EVERYTHING. FUCK YOU BITCH | | |
| great movie night tonight. Just finished watching Forest Gump, now i'm watching Now & Then, and at the same time The Breakfast Club is on! wow.. i just dyed my hair black and i got dye all over the hardwood floors, my dad will not be happy about that... my hair is dry and shit so blah.. i haven't seen bagel since wednesday or maybe thursday, i don't even remember. i talked to him for about 5 minutes. he called to say goodnight and that's about it. there's about a million and one things going on in my head right now. what's going on with us? where do we stand? why do we fight like this? why do i cry so much? why can't i sleep at night? why am i always so angry? why do i put myself in this position? why why why.. WHY DAMNIT WHY.... fuck you fuck everybody fuck this. i dont know anymore and i hate not knowing. | | |
| let me just jot down somethings i did yesterday and today..
FOURTH OF JULY- it's not a good feeling to be exhaused, tired, and pissed off... that's what i felt when i went to work. picture this: a HOT summer holiday.. everyone's off and thirsty so they go get boba.. and here i am with abubt 4 other people trying to make drinks and blend and pour and we're all tired and hot and exhausted. why dont' they staff more people considering it's a HOT holiday? hey, dont' ask me. who cares if i got more pay. i'm over that place.
So after that torture Irees,Clarice, and Jonathon picked me up and we went back over to Clarice's house and we had a BBQ there, which by the way, was VERY VERY weird..dont' ask me why. So yeah me and clarice went to get groceries with Jonathon in his old red jeep with no top and no doors. that was great... we went back to my house to do fireworks because its freakin ILLEGAL in Orange to do it so all 20something of us went back over to my house and we lit fireworks like crazy which was nice.. Jonathon and Derrick were lighting fireworks and kicking them around and jumping over them and shit which gave me a good laugh... All the adults had alcohol which was nice, my brother told my uncle to "make sure he limits our alcohol"  i dont' hate it. a street down from us they probably had 300 dollars worth of illegal fireworks but it was a nice show until we saw police cars pass by (probably looking for them) but yeah.. i went back to Clarice's house and spent the night there waiting for someone to call... i slept at 4.
Is it wrong to feel like you honestly don't care anymore? | | |
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hi. that's my dog PRINCE. he's pretty cool, when he doesn't stink. he's friendly and likes to bite his nails.
I haven't done anything the whole stinkin' day. I've been sitting here doing NOTHING. but hey i'm stripping the wallpaper in my room and painting it. probably a nice GREEN color. That will be interesting. Tomorrow i'm going to the beach and getting my nails done. that's probably the highlight of my WEEK. thats how fuckin bored i am.
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| sitting at home. no work. no school. nothing to do. it's hot. i'm hungry and there's nothing to eat. damn | | |
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